Latest on twitter:
Fat people.
Sex.
Cats.
Space.
Tea parties.
Cosplaying.
Culture.
Ignorance.
Alexander McQueen.
Adventure.
weak female characters in videogames, books, and shows who never do anything important and gets into trouble; always needing to be saved.
Oh wait, fuck.
They’re crazy. I’m a bad student. Inconsistent. I lack motivation. My imagination clouds my clear point of view. I hate making decision, but at least I will arrive at an answer; even if it is wrong.
I would cry, but I don’t know what to cry for. This dependent body of mine attaches to the nearest things.
I want to jump into a body of water and swim with the whales. If I died there, maybe I could reach the depths of hell. If darkness engulfed my body, my sins would not be seen. If I cried, it would appear to be salt water.
We are just made of star matter: why are we such a lonely planet?
“Look again at that dot. That’s here. That’s home. That’s us. On it,
everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever lived, lived
out their lives. The aggregate of all our joys and sufferings, thousands
of confident religions, ideologies and economic doctrines, every hunter
and forager, every hero and coward, every creator and destroyer of
civilizations, every king and peasant, every young couple in love,
every hopeful child, every mother and father, every inventor and
explorer, every teacher of morals, every corrupt politician, every
superstar, every supreme leader, every saint and sinner in the history of
our species, lived there on a mote of dust, suspended in a sunbeam.
The earth is a very small stage in a vast cosmic arena. Think of the
rivers of blood spilled by all those generals and emperors so that in
glory and in triumph they could become the momentary masters of a
fraction of a dot. Think of the endless cruelties visited by the
inhabitants of one corner of the dot on scarcely distinguishable
inhabitants of some other corner of the dot. How frequent their
misunderstandings, how eager they are to kill one another, how
fervent their hatreds. Our posturings, our imagined self-importance,
the delusion that we have some privileged position in the universe,
are challenged by this point of pale light.
Our planet is a lonely speck in the great enveloping cosmic dark. In our
obscurity — in all this vastness — there is no hint that help will come
from elsewhere to save us from ourselves. It is up to us. It’s been said
that astronomy is a humbling, and I might add, a character-building
experience. To my mind, there is perhaps no better demonstration of
the folly of human conceits than this distant image of our tiny world.
To me, it underscores our responsibility to deal more kindly and
compassionately with one another and to preserve and cherish that pale
blue dot, the only home we’ve ever known.”
-Carl Sagan, Pale Blue Dot, 1994
but I am trying.
I wouldn’t get enough transfer credits to go to a UC in my junior year if I did.
Instead I’m dropping out of state to go to a community college.
I hope everything goes well :\